A Few Quick Thoughts...

It is true that some of these blog entries have had a somewhat melancholy tone to them, and I think that is because I just really didn't want to brag, when all I wanted to say was wonderful, amazing, fantastic, incredible better than all of my wildest dreams. This is not to say that I haven't been letting you in to my inter-most thoughts, because in reality that first month of being here was very rough, even though every day I walked around with a gigantic smile on my face (not very French indeed) and everyone could tell that I was not from here before I even spoke my very American accented French, and the men could tell that I was fresh meat and that they would love to teach me the ways of the French. Aside from all of that, it occurs to me that perhaps I'm not a very good blogger, it is not that I don't like writing about myself in the most narcissistic of ways, the truth being that I love it, I have filled four journals and counting while I have been here, but really the fact of the matter is that I got a little distracted this last month here in Paris. But it is never to say that I haven't been thinking of this little blog of mine, whether or not anyone in the world is reading this. I certainly hope so, though I don't know and the life that I lead feels very far away, though by every day every minute it becomes closer and closer again, but in a very refreshing way. I am incredibly sad to be leaving this life here in Paris, not just because it is the happiest I have ever been in my life and that seems to be saying a lot, but that it is the realization that it is so easy to change once you do it, the key is to do it. I will never be the same after my time here, this is fantastic, I love it, that was entirely the point, and I hope that everyone in their own life will always have the opportunity to make their dreams a reality and all I can do is encourage everyone I know to do as much as they can to keep changing, to keep breaking their own rules, to keep discovering themselves. I feel that I sound like some over-dramatic self help book, but I really don't give a shit. It's the fucking truth, damn straight.
xox,
A